Where oh where did that thought go?
My mind is funny, well at least it is to me. I have fought off the depression from taking my mind over and making me feel worse,
and things pick up for the while and I'm happy once again. I have been bug hunting through code for about 3 weeks and
dying for a new project to work on. I have been working on in the past a newgroup(NNTP) reader, but I don't like the design
of it. Threads are tough to deal with. So I don't have anything to focus on at work. After spending some hard time a while ago on
working on a security login that works with LDAP, I got with 2 co-workers and intregrated it with thier projects to make a
"portal" for our intranet. Later on today I was told that they wanted to not use the portal and just place the project on the web
unsecured. That for some reason gave me a wicked blow to my ego, and once again today I'm fighting off feelings of depression
and sadness. I been told several time to grow think skin, but ti still hurts when stuff I spend alot of time on becomes unused
for what ever reason.
Once again I'm feeling low and down about my self, and I know I have to fight it off. I need a new project to focus on so I don't
think of it as much and I can move on, but the lull in work has my constanty thinking about it. So i'm posting to try to get it
out of my head, and give me something to do other then try to figure out what I can be working on.
Sigh.